Here goes…
by admin
Archives for July 2001
Okay, so, we’re closing in on the last two songs, and I have a lot of people to thank for all of this, so bare with me for a minute.
First of all, i want to thank FryKitty for not only starting this whole shebang but for entertaining my various forms of insanity throughout the planning and implementation of the event (and for putting me on the cam portal at the last second … i think seeing my ass live on camera was a good reward for that, don’t you?).
Second, i want to thank all of the members of the Crushed List that encouraged me to participate in such reckless behaviour, especially Dane, Benjy, Liz, Cheese, Desh, Carton & Tony.
Third, thank you to Rabi for telling me (once again) that my music was worth her hard earned cash, even though i still refuse to accept it (or her cash).
Fourth, thank you to Mollie & Michael for inspiration and for strength and for two really good songs that i will play for you someday, i promise.
Fifth, thank you to all of my other sponsors who lit a fire under me to get this done even though i had no indication they even knew i played guitar before now: Tom, Martha, Nancy, Melissa, & Dave.
Not quite last, thanx and lol’s to supportcrime, Danica, Jerwin, Aim, Iza and fx for keeping me awake and enthusiastic from afternoon to midnight to afternoon again.
And, finally, Gina, who makes this all fun again and again and again.
(i honestly don’t know who’s got which guitar on this one except for i’m the one with the wrong note at the beginning, but here’s the lyrics from slowjam)
… i keep trying to take a step forward, but you are a hundred steps back, you know? but, i’m trying to find a new attitude, but i am finding you are making me sarcastic. and i can’t get rid of you even when i want to ’cause you’re deadweight because i carry you with me, deadweight the way i can’t leave you behind, deadweight the way i will keep running to you… for help… which you know you’ll deny me.
… you know i am looking out at the new horizon and your face, babe, eclipses it black. i’m looking forward to a whole new life, and you refuse to let me have it. i can’t get rid of you even when i want to ’cause you’re deadweight the way you serve no purpose, you’re deadweight the way you drag me down, deadweight the way i will keep needing you so bad that i will keep you around… one, two three, one – a one, two three…
…cut you loose, you tie me down! and you’re just like a noose, you know you’re tied around my neck! and i just want to ditch you; you do me no good. does it make me a bitch now? i hope it does: i’m loving every minute of it – i’m loving every minute of it. i can’t cut you loose, you drag me down. and, you’re just like a noose – oh – you’re tied around my neck. and i just – wanna – ditch you… you do me no good! does it make me a bitch now? ’cause i’m loving every minute of it, loving every minute of it, i am loving… loving!… two! three! four!
deadweight the way i carry you with me, and you’re deadweight the way i can’t leave you behind, and you’re deadweight the way i keep running to you for help: oh, you deny me again! deadweight the way you serve no purpose ,and you’re deadweight the way you drag me down, deadweight the way i keep needing you so bad that i keep you… i keep you around, yeah.
“Deadweight” … it’s not the song i expected to have in the penultimate role, really. At first I was so convinced that “deadweight” was just some throw-away lyrics that i literally wrote it upside-down in the margins of a page with another song on it. You could hear that rhythm played a big part in the lyrics before i ever even know what the music was going to be like…. they have a certain kind of rise and fall to their layout. The riff couldn’t be simpler… C to Em, G to Asus, C to G, … all as simple as it gets. From the beginning i knew i liked it though, because it was explosive and loud and fun. I’m not quite sure what possessed Gina and i to have a collective go at it, as we typically avoid my faster songs, but we did, producing some lovely results. But, anyhow, at some point this year we had plenty of fast songs and so we started DeadWeight and just went into that holding patter over the chords until we were good and ready to get started, and away we went. And, that’s how it sounds now.